I’m moving through lesson after lesson these days. Swiftly. While pondering one, another presents itself. They all seem to be linked together which, when I’m not centered, presents a real challenge. My internal eyes dart left, then right, then up to the sky as if to say, Do I really have to get this all in one shot?
Maybe loving yourself comes from self-care and self-care stems from creating and living by boundaries, and being able to create boundaries means that I understand my needs. And knowing my needs means that I not only know myself, but I trust that what I know about myself is authentic. Living an honest and authentic life means that I respect myself. For me, respect and love go hand in hand, which brings us right back to do re me. And loving yourself.
I had aimed to write a full post on my needs (the frosting to my cupcake of boundaries) this morning as I prepare for my first open water swim this afternoon. Ah, but life intervenes. I have a sick little dude, two mattresses to clean from overnight accidents due to loads of water intake yesterday, an entire room full of laundry, plants to water, Legos to find, all by 1PM when I am to depart to Aquatic Park to swim with seals and sharks, and a very sweet man who has offered to make sure I survive the plunge. In 54 degree water.
This evening was to be an adult night out with my open water trainer/friend. Dinner and then to see The Parlotones. I had arranged an overnight childcare swap with a friend but hurling children ought to stay home, no? So we’ll see how it pans out as I only have two hours booked with a sitter. At the very least I hope I can get in the water, but if I can’t at least I know it’s not going anywhere! And sick children come before anything else.
Looks like I have to factor into my needs list a group of needs that can be met regardless of the hurdles and challenges of the day. I will also have needs that will have to be flexible enough to be jettisoned when duty calls. With no remorse. My life is as a single parent and has been for quite some time. This is not new for me.
I’m most intimidated by the list of needs that pertain to a person who walks with me on my journey. I’m still pondering how that can ever happen again.
I’ll keep you posted on Twitter – speaking of which…if you’re not following me please do! The link is to the right.
My middle name is flexible…