What message do I send to my children, and more specifically, my daughter, when I am weak? How scary must it be for them to see me cry when money is tight? How can I find the strength to hide how I feel, and more importantly, to do all that I need to do to move forward and being change in our lives?
The worry lines around my eyes are becoming a permanent part of what I see in the mirror; no amount of concealer can hide how I feel. But maybe I need to shift my focus from how I feel, to the message I am sending. Do I want my daughter to see women as weak? Or do I want her to see women, and specifically me, as strong and capable?
I think that I need to keep that though in the forefront of my mind. Maybe this can inspire me to dig deeper than I thought possible.
What is my inspiration? Self love has not been enough. How do I want to be seen? It is time for a shift in my mindset, or I am doing an injustice to my children. They know that I love them. But I think I need to work to be more inspirational in my message to them. Hard work pays off. Even if people wrong you, you cannot let yesterday take over today. It is with these thoughts that I begin my day.