I’m having one of those days.
First work crap. I have a patient in jail for rape.
He deserves to be there.
He knew what he was doing and knew it was wrong.
But that is still something I must reconcile in my head.
He has physical issues (Parkinson’s) and a mood disorder.
And I’m worried he isn’t getting his medicines.
It’s nagging at me.
Then, Jumping Bean called crying at 7 a.m. yesterday because
she had to go to the office because her skirt was too short.
Stanley was on and had to take her a pair of pants to school.
Actual picture of skirt with Stanley and his measuring tape.
I pick up carpool every day and see billions of short skirts.
I sent the principal an email and said it was ridiculous and ruined her day.
I got an unsatisfactory response.
So I sent another email with pictures I took
(to my kid’s ever embarrassment)
of girls with much shorter skirts yesterday.
I don’t care other than that I want the rules to be consistent.
Kids can’t work without consistency.
This is chapping my ass.
Also, I have another little work irritant that I am trying to
figure out. So far I have gotten no appropriate resolution.
Then, I miss Al.
And he isn’t happy either.
I yelled at him yesterday a little bit over the phone.
The phone is an issue.
I absolutely hate to talk on the phone.
He absolutely loves to hear my voice.I have no idea why because I am a cranky ass.
But I break down and talk because it means a lot to him
but that makes me cranky on the phone because it just
became work to me. Something else I have to do.
Not good for either of us.
This long distance relationship is a problem.
We can’t see each other again for 3 weeks due to kid schedules.
That will make 4 weeks between visits.
Not good because unlike that little tidbit of nonsense up there:
I am not bold. I am fearful in relationships.
It requires trust and faith in someone
and I am not so good at that.
It is chapping my ass and that hurts his feelings.
I have other little irritants but we all do and that is plenty for today.
I am wishing all of you better coping tools than I have today.