It’s raining, it’s pouring….the old man is snoring. He went to bed and bumped his head and couldn’t get up in the morning. Maybe he just had a killer hangover.
Let all the bad stuff happen this year and can I please have some positivity in 2014. This past week has been really difficult for me. If it can go wrong, it is going wrong.
To give you just a little sample: I replaced the faucet in the kitchen in July. Bought this nice, moderately expensive faucet. It is now leaking. Seems so insignificant, but when you are rolling on the negative tide it’s a huge tidal wave. It had me crying like baby.
Well, I made it through the mad consumerism time of the year. Christmas is not my favorite time of the year. I have always been a Grinch and that is all I have to say on that.
Time to reflect on the past year and look forward to the New Year.
This year utterly sucked. I like the term “sucked elephant balls”. The last few weeks it has gotten worse. Is that even possible? Yes, amazingly it could. Today is the 30th, please let me make it to 1st with nothing majorly bad happening.
I just want to be done with 2013, bring on 2014. New year and new supermoons.
I have taken about 10 steps back in my divorce recovery. Wish I could blame it all on the “holiday” season, but I cannot. Everything is converging at once. The clock is ticking to my court date. We were unable to beg the court to get divorce decree this year. I so wish they had, then I would not have this countdown going on in my head.
Next year I will be 40. I am so looking forward to my 40’s. I am that weird woman that loves getting older. I could not wait to get out of my 20’s and say “I’m a grown ass woman now”. I enjoy getting older cause it means I am alive and I am still learning. Plus, the older I get, the less I truly care what others think. By the time I am 80, I will probably speak in nothing but profanities.
As I look back on the last 10 years, they have been my best and worst years thus far. I should be thankful.
- Got my braces off – yep, I was that adult with braces…ugh
- Bought my condo
- Bought my first non-beater car, it was used, but “luxury”
- Fell in love
- Got married
- Had my son
Pretty good 10 years, right. I think so. Could have been better, but I am thankful. But you cannot have the yang with out the yin.
Side bar – why is yin, the feminine, negative and dark and the yang, the masculine, positive and bright? Seriously?
Anyhow…. the negatives of the last 10 years:
- Laid-off by same company twice, see I don’t learn first time around.
- Did not meet goal to graduate within 20 years. (This is just funny, who takes 20 + years to get undergrad – me!).
- Husband started emotional affair with co-worker.
- Husband feel in love with co-worker and moved out.
- Filed for divorce.
I could go on and on with the negatives, but you get the gist.
Last year I started a gratitude jar. That lasted one day. I have two notes of gratitude in the jar and three home repair receipts. I sucked at the gratitude jar. So, if at first you do not succeed, try again.
So, for 2014 I will give it another shot. I already know what I will put in on January 1, 2014 – Thankful I made it though 2013. Not quite sane, but totally alive and with some kick still in me.