I looked into various marriage apps before I began writing so that I could have the correct information. They have psychologists, counselors and marriage specialists who give you all kinds of advice about your marriage such as how to keep communication going, how to keep love going strong, how to keep marriage exciting. Those are good things to know, but I wish there were an app that would give advice about how to do deal when your marriage isn’t what you thought it was.
My marriage day was the happiest day of my life – or so I thought. I thought my husband hung the moon and visited it sometimes just to make sure it was hanging straight. Little did I know this human “superman” was just a man. A flawed man with demons.
Months after my perfect wedding day I found out I was expecting. My husband and I were excited and a little scared. We needed more time to know each other before new lives came along. A marriage app would have been helpful then by saying, “Stop the honeymoon and look at real life.” Even though I had a daughter from a previous relationship, this was our first child together.
After I became pregnant my marriage slowly began to spiral down. My husband had to move out of town to get a job and I was left by myself. I was not prepared to go through the pregnancy alone. My husband came home when he could, but that wasn’t very often. He made it for the delivery of our son, but what came afterwards was heartbreaking.
I moved to my husband’s hometown near his job. I completely changed my life for him. Isn’t that what a wife is supposed to do? I wish I had someone or something to help me with this decision. All those months my husband was away he had made a life without me. He had friends I didn’t know and he was going about living his life without his wife. After our son was born, we actually lived together under the same roof and it was difficult. I didn’t really know this man and all those things that I thought didn’t matter became our downfall.
What if I had a marriage app that warned me: you will get fixed up to go out with your husband and he will still leave you at home with the kids because you made him late; or even if you buy the perfect dress, the perfect pair of shoes, and get your hair done, it still won’t be enough.
I tried to love my husband through whatever was going on with him. I seriously thought it was another woman. I didn’t know he would be cold, distant, and mean. My “superman” had turned into a villain right before my eyes. After months of senseless fighting, we separated. My husband packed his bags and left me and my two young children alone in a strange town hundreds of miles from family and friends.
I wish there had been a marriage app to help me. I would have downloaded it quickly and followed each step to the last period.