I hate being poor. I’ve said that a million times on my blog. I suck at it. I wasn’t rich before by any stretch, but Stanley and I were making it and with both incomes I could keep myself in some sort of style. We ate out several times a week and took a vacation every year. Now, unbeknownst to me, Stanley was running up a heap of credit cards on his very own. If he needs to cut something, he buys an expensive table saw. He is absolutely terrible with money, and since I hate to be poor, and was very busy working and having babies, I kind of filed this away in the back of my mind as something to worry about when I had time.
It wasn’t entirely his fault, I turned a blind eye and let it happen .
Sometimes, looking back at my marriage, I think my brain cells leaked out wth my breast milk.
Here goes all my brains!
My momma told me that when I got divorced I was going to be poor. For some reason I didn’t worry about it prior to my divorce. I thought, well, he has maxed us out and it can’t be worse. Wrong, it’s worse. Sometimes I sweat gas. I hate that. I make sure the kids have what they need and the kids are provided for out of the nest account. However, I did make the decision not to send Jumping Bean to summer camp for a week for $500. If she had wanted to go, I would have found a way, but she was on the fence, so I decided not to push it because the 4 of us could use that to go away for a few days.
Although the kids are provided for, I look like an orphan.
I have holes in my clothes that I cover with scarves and stuff. Seriously it’s pathetic. I may have to learn to mend, which would be a catastrophe since the sock monkey I made last year looked like this…
I had to buy a few things this spring just because I have to be presentable to work. My Aunt gave me a pair of black sandals (she said she didn’t like the way they look on her feet but I suspect it is because my other ones were so pitiful) that I have worn every day since she handed them down. I’m grateful.
My most favorite little luxury, prior to my divorce, was expensive makeup, face cleansers, and bath stuff. Bubble bath, lotions, scrubs, sign me up.
I had quite a stash.
Unfortunately, I’m out of every single thing, all the extras, free gift with purchase samples, spares and doubles that I had hoarded over the years. I’m currently washing my face with deodorant soap from the shower. To be honest, it doesn’t look any different but I am afraid I’m going to look 10 years older any day now.
This could be me one day soon for real.
Now, I am having to replace the good stuff with…
drug store brands.
The horror… (I know I should be ashamed, first world problems).
Now I’m looking for dupes and websites that offer information like this.
So far I’ve found a few things I like and some that mearly aren’t terrible:
Revlon Lip Butters are awesome.
They feel soft and aren’t at all drying. It is a slick of color. My current fave is Wild Watermelon.
I finally ran out of my Laura Geller Foundation so now I’m wearing this. I don’t wear alot of foundation, so I use about 3 tiny dots.
It’s $31 cheaper which is 2/3 of a tank of gas.
If you have any great drug store finds, please share them with me.
A girl has to do what a girl has to do.