Don’t Fall Victim to Love Through Rose Colored Glasses
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By Mark Banschick, Featured DM Blogger - September 20, 2013 - Updated October 04, 2013


So why do some people settle for a role of being second best in relationships?

Do you know anyone like this? Are you playing second best in your relationship?

Don't Fall Victim to Repetition Compulsion: 

Freud gave us the concept of Repetition Compulsion. It’s a brilliant idea which applies to many unhappy relationships. What happens is that you are hurt as a kid, and then go about recreating that injury in adulthood, in the unconscious belief that this time it will turn out better.

Do you know someone who suffers from a repetition compulsion with narcissists and cheats? What if you find yourself repeating the same mistake, over and over again, of choosing someone who treats you as second best? It is more common than you think.

Here is one woman’s path to through world of charismatic cheats and narcissists.

Her name is Rachel, and her story is not unique.

Rachel’s Story:

Rachel, 27, never felt particularly special when she was a kid. Her dad, Gus, was so involved with himself. He loved his work, his friends, and his social scene. Gus was the center. Rachel and her brother, Andy, each felt second best; and Gus was too self preoccupied to pay it much mind. Gus was a typical narcissistic father. He didn’t even notice that Rachel and Andy were suffering.

Gus “knew” that he loved them, and just assumed it was enough. But here are the facts: Gus saw his family fleetingly. He was often late for dinner, rarely came to their sporting events or shows and the kids longed for whatever they could get from their father. Everyone came second to Gus’s needs; Rachel’s mother, Anna, suffered gracefully—but struggled with depression for many years.

Rachel and Andy did well professionally, they were bright and motivated. Yet, even after Gus’s passing, they continued to compete with each other. That strange feeling of never being good enough could not be shaken.
Now, as an adult, Rachel has casual relationships with men that are unsatisfactory, but somehow work.

She has taken the role of being a modern, sexually active woman, but down deep settles for less than a real relationship. She finds herself with charismatic guys, who rarely remain faithful, but who are fun and even exhilarating. Rachel experiences little conflict. She enjoys sex and these exciting men, but wants her distance as well. The problem is that as time goes by, Rachel wonders why everyone she hooks up with ends up leaving. Perhaps she’s not the marrying type.

Eventually Rachel meets Anthony, a charming, successful guy on the rise. He’s older and has his “act together.” At, least that’s the way Anthony sees it. They date for a while and it's crazy time. Rachel loves the sex, the fun and Anthony’s confidence.

Three months go by, and Rachel starts to see less of Anthony. He’s away at a conference, or perhaps out with friends. She wants him more. She texts and harangues him—not her style. He gets angry and tells her that she’s over reacting. Rachel backs down. She is locked in.

Then, the truth comes out. Anthony has been getting some on the side; an old fling—a casual friend. Rachel wants to leave him but can’t. In fact, Anthony offers the idea of real commitment. Although Anthony’s got a bad track record, Rachel’s hooked. Gus may not be around, but the pain of loving someone while feeling second best, is all too familiar.

From the Therapist’s Couch:

Rachel believes that she is enjoying a modern, sexually free lifestyle. But secretly, she’s got self-esteem issues. She settles time and again for less; a “repetition compulsion”. Now, Rachel’s in love with Anthony, a narcissistic guy who makes her feel unwanted in their relationship

Rachel’s battle is with Gus, as much as it is with Anthony. She’s entered the Field of Intimacy, and once inside, it’s tough to get out. Imagine a rocket trying to escape the gravitational pull of Earth. She is stuck in an unhappy vortex.

Normally, Rachel is in charge. She has sex, does not get too attached and then is left. It may not be happy, but it’s under control. And, for a young woman who never felt adored by her powerful father, it is a solution of sorts.

Then, Anthony comes along. Despite herself, Rachel begins to like him—and he triggers all her longings. Anthony will never love her as she wants to be loved, not unlike the way Gus loved his business (or his affairs—we don’t know). Now, Rachel feels second best—and she is.

Anthony is killing her slowly with his affection.

So, Rachel finally lets someone in, and settles for a lot of long-term chronic pain.

Do you have a friend like Rachel? Are you like Rachel?

The Take Away:

Rachel deserves to be loved and valued. By clinging to Anthony, the sexual chemistry (without the emotional, spiritual and mental bond) she allows herself to be stripped of her dignity and vitality. At first Rachel believes that sex but no intimacy is acceptable. She is satisfied with it—and feels safe this way.
A relationship with a charismatic narcissist is a safe relationship; if that is all you know.

Welcome to the repetition compulsion.

Rachel needs to break away. She needs to shout out “NO” to exploitive relationships. Perhaps in therapy, Rachel will realize she’s worth more—and by doing so, restore a sense of confidence to her life. Because she helped to create this relationship, Rachel also has the power to make changes that will make her happy.
Let Gus rest in peace already!

When you enter the Field of Intimacy, childhood issues come to the surface. Many people have had parents like Gus who were narcissistic or self involved, making them feel second best. And, such people often end up with self absorbed men as mates, only to feel insecure and pay the price.

Why not find someone who can really love you?

Break the old pattern. The past need not dictate your future relationships.

Love is something worth fighting for.

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