Scared Of Being Alone

For those of you that follow me,

it must be exhausting to keep up with my ups and downs.

I commend you for trying.

Since my divorce my mind races and most times

it ain’t pretty.

I’m relieved

I’m sad

I don’t believe it happened to me

I can’t believe I didn’t do it sooner

I’m scared of being alone

I love the freedom and feeling independent

Did I mention scared?

I’m scared.

Still.

Sometimes I dream I accidently drive off a cliff.

I had to take a class on dream analysis in my MSW program.

It doesn’t take the coordinator of the GED to figure out that one.