Bad JuJu

Stanley and I need an exorcism.  This place has been a disaster.  One would think the universe was trying to tell me something.  I’m starting to think I was Hitler in a past life considering the Karma I have had since January.

I’m trying to keep it in perspective.  No one in my immediate family is dying and no one is seriously ill.  I have a very good friend who lost her mom last week.  Bless her, my struggle is nothing like that.But………  That fucking water heater hose burst again.  Actually, it was the other hose (who knew there were 2?) than the one that blew in March which caused $20,000 worth of repairs.  We are still dealing with the insurance company on the final check.  In addition, our a/c went out in the 98 degree heat last week and we have a $1600 bill on the kitchen counter.I left for the weekend to get the kids from my mom yesterday after work.  Stanley is there and thank God he went by the nest this morning, because he walked in to a flood.  Drywall down again, etc.   He was threatening to burn the house down when he called me. 

All of his impulse control and excellent coping skills were in full effect.

If there is a fire I will kill Stanley for sure.  

My next boyfriend will be a butch woman in the state prison.

I was going to take the kids home today but I just can’t bear it.  I’m doing meditation and calming self talk to try to process in a calm manner how this could happen again.

Remember when I said that there were 2 types of bad things?

• Things that happen to everybody
• Oh Lord, Why me?

 I’m still working on where this will fall.  I guess I just need to drink more.  I will finally figure it out.    And right when I was trying to smile more!!