Here and There

I’ve been here and there since getting back from my trip and readjusting to the swing of normal life. Such a pity because I don’t have my nurse anymore nor anyone that tells me how wonderful I am every 30 seconds. I adjust to that pretty quickly and when the adoration goes away it is a hard fall.

I’ve been running from work to carpool and now the chiropractor’s office since I’ve been back in town. I saw the chiropractor last Thursday and have been going for treatment on my back and neck injuries sustained in my fall. I had nest duty from last Tuesday when I arrived home because I missed the kids so much I begged Stanley for it. We are back on our normal schedule now, which means it is written that I am on until Wednesday. I’m good with that.

I want my kids all the time.

I know that isn’t fair. I know.

I consider the fact that I don’t have my kids all the time

my punishment for divorce.

Can anyone else relate to that feeling?

I feel like this right now.

I do believe Stanley wants to talk to me.

There has been a whole lot of hemming and hawing going on…

I’m afraid that he wants to tell me he wants out of birdnesting.

He has this girlfriend and maintaining the children’s home is expensive and I know he wants to pay less. My question, and I guess I need to call the lawyer but that will cost me, is can he just get out of a signed mediated agreement easily? I hate this. I hate it. Maybe I’m imaging all of this. But at any rate, I am going to make myself a moving target until this feeling passes.

It takes him a while to spit it out and so if

I can move fast enough, I can put this off awhile.