Love Take 2

Al was here this weekend.

Big sigh.

This man is so perfect.

DAY-UM.

He came in very late on Friday night and stayed in a hotel one minute from the house.  Because it was my weekend on nest duty, he helped me with chores on Saturday, even bathed the dog.  We grilled burgers and all watched The Hunger Games together on Saturday night.  He is great with the kids.  He is forging a relationship with them individually and because he is so careful with their feelings, they don’t seem threatened or resentful of him at all.  We are very careful not to kiss in front of them although they have seen plenty of hand holding.  

I told Stanley on Friday that he was coming and would be here since I was on but that I was putting him in a hotel at bedtime per our agreement.  Stanley was like, “Okay!  Have a good weekend!”

**Per our Nesting Agreement, we can have romantic partners over to the nest, but not for overnights.  The nest is the children’s home.

But for all of the sweetness and love surrounding me right now from this precious man, I still am so nervous about marriage again.

Just for instance:

 

At this point in time, we text all day.  So, if we get married that will stop right?  

I don’t want that to stop.

At this point, we share everything.  So, if we get married will we share everything? 

 Not in my experience.  

At this point we can’t get close enough physically.  Will we stop touching all the time? 

Based on my experience, I will pretend to be asleep so that he won’t try to touch me.  

 He says that this is true love and that it would never be that way.  He says that our relationships with our exes were inferior and that we would never ever compromise what we have together.  He says that he wants to give me his best every single day.  He says that there is nothing else for him but me, that there is me and then there is everything else.  He says everything for him is about me.

And when you have someone treating you with that kind of care and saying those beautiful things and flying half way across the country paying exorbitant airfare just because you aren’t feeling well, well, then you want to be sweet back.  And I want to give him my best every single day.  

Sometimes I fail.  I can be a cranky bitch.

But I catch it fast and apologize and love him up.  He does not deserve anything but my best.

I don’t know what is going to happen with us.  It is too new and even though we have a history there was still that 30 year hiatus and we have to get to know each other again.

But day-um he is blowing my mind.

I’m used to 

Any man that talked to me was probably almost guaranteed to get lucky.

 But this, I never expected in my wildest dreams.

He is laughing at me calling him Al. He said he’s never had a song before and now when he reads my blog he starts singing Paul Simon.  Which made me laugh.  Hard.

Love Take 2 is scary.  

I’m hoping to hell I don’t screw it up!