It’s raining, it’s pouring….the old man is snoring. He went to bed and bumped his head and couldn’t get up in the morning. Maybe he just had a killer hangover.
Let all the bad stuff happen this year and can I please have some positivity in 2014. This past week has been really difficult for me. If it can go wrong, it is going wrong.
To give you just a little sample: I replaced the faucet in the kitchen in July. Bought this nice, moderately expensive faucet. It is now leaking. Seems so insignificant, but when you are rolling on the negative tide it’s a huge tidal wave. It had me crying like baby.
Well, I made it through the mad consumerism time of the year. Christmas is not my favorite time of the year. I have always been a Grinch and that is all I have to say on that.
Time to reflect on the past year and look forward to the New Year.
This year utterly sucked. I like the term “sucked elephant balls”. The last few weeks it has gotten worse. Is that even possible? Yes, amazingly it could. Today is the 30th, please let me make it to 1st with nothing majorly bad happening.
I just want to be done with 2013, bring on 2014. New year and new supermoons.
I have taken about 10 steps back in my divorce recovery. Wish I could blame it all on the “holiday” season, but I cannot. Everything is converging at once. The clock is ticking to my court date. We were unable to beg the court to get divorce decree this year. I so wish they had, then I would not have this countdown going on in my head.
Next year I will be 40. I am so looking forward to my 40’s. I am that weird woman that loves getting older. I could not wait to get out of my 20’s and say “I’m a grown ass woman now”. I enjoy getting older cause it means I am alive and I am still learning. Plus, the older I get, the less I truly care what others think. By the time I am 80, I will probably speak in nothing but profanities.
As I look back on the last 10 years, they have been my best and worst years thus far. I should be thankful.
- Got my braces off – yep, I was that adult with braces…ugh
- Bought my condo
- Bought my first non-beater car, it was used, but “luxury”
- Fell in love
- Got married
- Had my son
Pretty good 10 years, right. I think so. Could have been better, but I am thankful. But you cannot have the yang with out the yin.
Side bar – why is yin, the feminine, negative and dark and the yang, the masculine, positive and bright? Seriously?
Anyhow…. the negatives of the last 10 years:
- Laid-off by same company twice, see I don’t learn first time around.
- Did not meet goal to graduate within 20 years. (This is just funny, who takes 20 + years to get undergrad – me!).
- Husband started emotional affair with co-worker.
- Husband feel in love with co-worker and moved out.
- Filed for divorce.
- Mediation
I could go on and on with the negatives, but you get the gist.
Last year I started a gratitude jar. That lasted one day. I have two notes of gratitude in the jar and three home repair receipts. I sucked at the gratitude jar. So, if at first you do not succeed, try again.
So, for 2014 I will give it another shot. I already know what I will put in on January 1, 2014 – Thankful I made it though 2013. Not quite sane, but totally alive and with some kick still in me.
Peace out,
The Wifey
Wow…2013 was pretty bad, huh, but not THAT bad…I meant to say the negatives of the last 10 years.
September 2013 was the one of the worst days–again in my life, The first was when he lost thousands and his 401K in a bad franshise adventure, and then couldn’t deal with it, and asked me for a divorce in 2007, in which I cried for a week, begging him, and clawing my way back into his heart
Just one week after he left, my youngest of 23 years old got drunk and angry that his dad walked out (just one of the reasons) and had to go to jail and got a domestic violence charge, Just three days in jail, with a “no contact” order in place–meaning I couldn’t see him, talk to him, nothing–and my son punched a brink wall, braking both hands, He is Ok now
Then on January 6th, I received a phone call from my brother in NY and told me our father of 85 years old, was found outside all night, in the pouring rain, soaking wet, and didn’t know who or where he was, He is now resting comfortably in a nursing home now,
And–on Janurary 20th, my brother, David, who also lives in NY called me at 8 pm WA state time, and told me to sit down, as he had some astounding news to tell me. Then–he proceeded to tell me that while he was cleaning out our dad’s apartment, since he could live there anymore, he found a metal box with a lock on it. When he opened the box—David found my ADOPTION PAPERS!!! What? I was adopted!! and never knew about it at all. At age 56 years old to find this out, and find out that my birth mother was French, and came from Stasbourg, no father listed on my birth certificate, I even had another given name, but was changed to what my adoptive parents wanted to name me.
I feel as if the year 2013 I am living in a “Twilight Zone” of sorts, How can any one person digest all this trauma in such a short period of time? But as the months continue to pass without “him”, I am finding out that I am much stronger and able to cope with everything thrown at me,
Every day and night I thank my husband, soon to be divorced from him) that he left me while I still have many more years ahead of me, to enjoy my life like I was supposed to, with laughter and joy, and love.
Hello Deborah,
Apologies…I have been MIA of late.
I have seen your comments. 2013 was definitely at Twilight Zone of sorts.
I do hope all has gotten better in 2014.
Thanks for your comments. I wish you well.
Peace,
Moxie
Hello Deborah,
Apologies…I have been MIA of late.
I have seen your comments. 2013 was definitely at Twilight Zone of sorts.
I do hope all has gotten better in 2014.
Thanks for your comments. I wish you well.
Peace,
Moxie
Hello Deborah,
Apologies…I have been MIA of late.
I have seen your comments. 2013 was definitely at Twilight Zone of sorts.
I do hope all has gotten better in 2014.
Thanks for your comments. I wish you well.
Peace,
Moxie
Hello Deborah,
Apologies…I have been MIA of late.
I have seen your comments. 2013 was definitely at Twilight Zone of sorts.
I do hope all has gotten better in 2014.
Thanks for your comments. I wish you well.
Peace,
Moxie
Hello Deborah,
Apologies…I have been MIA of late.
I have seen your comments. 2013 was definitely at Twilight Zone of sorts.
I do hope all has gotten better in 2014.
Thanks for your comments. I wish you well.
Peace,
Moxie
Hello Deborah,
Apologies…I have been MIA of late.
I have seen your comments. 2013 was definitely at Twilight Zone of sorts.
I do hope all has gotten better in 2014.
Thanks for your comments. I wish you well.
Peace,
Moxie
Hello Deborah,
Apologies…I have been MIA of late.
I have seen your comments. 2013 was definitely at Twilight Zone of sorts.
I do hope all has gotten better in 2014.
Thanks for your comments. I wish you well.
Peace,
Moxie
Hello Deborah,
Apologies…I have been MIA of late.
I have seen your comments. 2013 was definitely at Twilight Zone of sorts.
I do hope all has gotten better in 2014.
Thanks for your comments. I wish you well.
Peace,
Moxie
Hello Deborah,
Apologies…I have been MIA of late.
I have seen your comments. 2013 was definitely at Twilight Zone of sorts.
I do hope all has gotten better in 2014.
Thanks for your comments. I wish you well.
Peace,
Moxie
Hello Deborah,
Apologies…I have been MIA of late.
I have seen your comments. 2013 was definitely at Twilight Zone of sorts.
I do hope all has gotten better in 2014.
Thanks for your comments. I wish you well.
Peace,
Moxie
Hello Deborah,
Apologies…I have been MIA of late.
I have seen your comments. 2013 was definitely at Twilight Zone of sorts.
I do hope all has gotten better in 2014.
Thanks for your comments. I wish you well.
Peace,
Moxie
Hello Deborah,
Apologies…I have been MIA of late.
I have seen your comments. 2013 was definitely at Twilight Zone of sorts.
I do hope all has gotten better in 2014.
Thanks for your comments. I wish you well.
Peace,
Moxie
Hello Deborah,
Apologies…I have been MIA of late.
I have seen your comments. 2013 was definitely at Twilight Zone of sorts.
I do hope all has gotten better in 2014.
Thanks for your comments. I wish you well.
Peace,
Moxie
Hello Deborah,
Apologies…I have been MIA of late.
I have seen your comments. 2013 was definitely at Twilight Zone of sorts.
I do hope all has gotten better in 2014.
Thanks for your comments. I wish you well.
Peace,
Moxie
Hello Deborah,
Apologies…I have been MIA of late.
I have seen your comments. 2013 was definitely at Twilight Zone of sorts.
I do hope all has gotten better in 2014.
Thanks for your comments. I wish you well.
Peace,
Moxie
Hello Deborah,
Apologies…I have been MIA of late.
I have seen your comments. 2013 was definitely at Twilight Zone of sorts.
I do hope all has gotten better in 2014.
Thanks for your comments. I wish you well.
Peace,
Moxie
Hello Deborah,
Apologies…I have been MIA of late.
I have seen your comments. 2013 was definitely at Twilight Zone of sorts.
I do hope all has gotten better in 2014.
Thanks for your comments. I wish you well.
Peace,
Moxie