Starting over is rough. I am in limbo between missing what was and figuring out how to start new again. How do I gain clarity in a dark tunnel?
There is no road map for divorce, no dictionary on how to proceed with a new life. So, I began to create my own map on how to live.
This is the story of the day I found the strength to put my marriage out of its misery and find myself again. I saved my soul.
Have you ever had a conversation change your life? One day, one moment, and one talk shocked me into divorce.
The beginning of the end occurred as Husband and I walked in couples counseling. He talked and I listened, and reality began to set in.
All I wanted was to be alone but one after another, Husbands' family joined me outside. The tequila poured and it spilled out...
How do you celebrate the anniversary of a marriage that is failing? What would you say in a letter to your husband?
I wanted to get out of the Expedition and run and hide. I wanted to find a cave or dark hole and crawl in it and never return. I wanted to die.
There are hard days in divorce and then there are days that come from the twilight zone. My thirty-second birthday was one of those days.
Can I do the impossible and forgive Husband to keep the family together? Can home construction and visits to the counselor "fix us?"
My life has always been relatively calm and stress free. I make smart decisions and my friends usually do too, except Ex-Husband it turns out.
Tears streamed down his face. "What if I just stay downstairs and see if we can work this out? I could sleep on the couch." I turned and replied....
Breaking up my family started with Husband's affair, continued with a pregnancy, and now landed me at the bank where emotions exploded again.
Three days into my divorce, I heard my baby's heartbeat and hours later I was in surgery. It was ectopic. This is my letter to my unborn baby.