I am just your average everyday 40something aged woman. I have 4 children that are young adults and teens. After 17 years in a relationship with the man that is the father of our children, I made the difficult decision to officially leave my marriage in October of 2008 with my divorce finalized shortly after that. At times that has been an easy decision to live with and at others well, not so easy.
My life is summarized by my favorite quote by Douglas Adams
“I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I have ended up where I needed to be”
This quote speaks volumes to me. It allows me to believe that through all my choices in life, I have come to a place that I feel is right for me.
But my journey is far from over. I believe that we all have choices in life. Some easy and some the most difficult decisions we will ever have to make. But they are my choices. I am the one that will have to live with the consequences of my choices. I have not always made the best selection and I feel those choices that have caused me the most pain and heartache have taught me the greatest lessons in life.
Life is really about the journey for me. It is about seeking out the truth about yourself and either accepting it or changing what you can. Sometimes we just have to smile through it the best we can because there is no other choice. But it is still a choice.
So through many heartaches, tears, happy times and smiles, here I am. I do not pretend to be someone I am not. I am who I am. The only person I change for is me. It has taken me a long time to get to a point where I like me, and I do not have that kind of time to invest in making someone else like me. You either like me or don’t. It really is quite that simply for me.
I am a women with emotions, thoughts, feelings, worries and joy. It is a roller coaster ride that spans many days. Some scary bends. Some dips. Some high points. But all in all, I am enjoying the ride. So buckle up and hold on.